As a mom I feel like every day I am faced with new decisions that I have to make for the way I will care for my children. Each day there is a new opinion out on the street that says, this is the best way, that is the old way. How as a mom am I supposed to see through all the expectations and see what is best for my kids? I know the simple pad answer, prayer, but I am going to be completely honest, I am a worrier! I worry about what I am doing for my kids, am I doing what is best for them, are they going to be well-adjusted men… Sakes alive! I never felt like I was a worrier until God gave me the responsibility of being a mom. Having these three men looking at me daily for their guidance is enough to drive a sane woman, insane!
I made the decision that next year I am going to keep the two younger brothers home. We will not be doing preschool. We will take the money that we would pay for the monthly tuition and put it towards a pool pass and zoo pass for the three of us and we will spend our days enjoying each other. As soon as I made the decision that was what I was going to do I began questioning it. Am I doing what is emotionally, socially and academically best for them? Why can’t I just leave well enough alone?
Next year big brother will be going to school all day! He will start school at 8:40 and go until 3:15. Hubby and I are talking about having him ride the bus with the rest of the neighbor kids. How is it that my first born is growing up so stinking fast? Before I know it we will be looking at colleges to apply to! Life goes way too fast!
My biggest mommy heart is to do the absolute best for my boys! My prayer is that God will pick up in the areas that I lack as a mom. I pray that my boys know that they are loved and cherished. That they know that both their dad and I could not be more proud of them.
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